In the past year I have conquered some demons that have haunted me most of my life. I've confronted those demons and squashed their existence in my life. By doing this I have been doing some deep self analyzing. For years I looked for the answers in other people. By surrounding myself with people that I wanted to be like I found myself pacifying the demon. Ultimately, how can I be happy with someone else if I'm not happy by myself. It's taken me 4 years to finally be happy with myself.
No more Hot Bassist, he was helping pacify the demon. I saw in him confidence and charisma that I wanted in myself.I think most of all I needed the fantasy of someone encompassing those characteristics wanting me.
I'm ready to put myself out there and see what happens.
What will the future hold?
Que Sera, Sera!
